Cancer - Lovescope for week of June 2, 2008
During the first part of the week you're likely to be in a rather meditative state. Your attention turns inward as the Moon disappears completely by Tuesday night. Take note of your dreams during these first couple days of the week. Important messages come to you while you sleep. You'll receive valuable insight on the true dynamic surrounding your romantic partnership. On Wednesday night and Thursday your confidence is on the rise and you'll have the emotional strength to share these feelings openly with the one you love. Don't be shy or ashamed about how you feel. Getting things off your chest during this midweek period will help you enjoy the festive energy that presents itself this weekend. Friday night and Saturday are times to celebrate, but you might be setting yourself up for disaster if you haven't come clean with yourself or the one you love before now.
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Bubba and I haven't had any personal time since Friday.
I Know! He keeps saying were going to hang out, or we really do make plans, and then he finds something else to do. Granted some of these things are emergencies. Most of them are poor planning. I just started a new job at The Home Depot. I went to orientation Saturday and Sunday 8am-5pm. And then I had my first two days of work(training) Monday and Tuesday 8am-5pm. So at 5 I'm looking to go back to the shop to get in some time. Even though its not the personal time I want, it's something.
When I get to the shop, things are cool. He seems genuinely happy to see me, but DOES NOT want me to tell him how my day was. He is perfectly content with me just saying it was good. No run of events, no details, NOTHING!
Basically, the less talking he and I have to do the better.
What?! Thanks a lot. So I have to get all my talking out with Jason, the owner and my good friend. That sucks. He has a skill, he can look like he's listening, and every once in a while repeat something back, so you think he's listening. It serves its purpose, because I can vent, bitch, talk, whine, or whatever and he just sits there "attentively" listening.
The thing that gets to me is the only reason I took the job at The Home Depot is to beef up our finances and make moves. If we both make better money, we MIGHT be able to get a place together and take the next steps in our relationship. I did my finances with different weekly hours and came to the conclusion that I can pay off most of my bills in less than 3 months. I have $1500 left to pay my parents(monthly), a credit card bill(monthly), phone bill(monthly), gas(weekly), the gym(monthly), and child support that Bubba and I share(weekly). Theres some other shit I cant remember.
So now I'm making all these moves, and it feels like he's shutting down. He wants to live his own life. Shouldn't he be thinking the same way I am? Or am I taking this relationship somewhere he doesn't want it to go? I'm really confused. He was pushing and pushing and pushing me to get a better job. Then I get a job, and I don't know what his motive for me to get one anymore was. Did he really just want space, or does he want to make moves with me?
I'm confused and want some direction. He doesn't want to chill with me, he doesn't like to talk on the phone, he doesn't want to be affectionate at the shop, and he doesn't want to make moves with me.
He says what more do you want we'll be together Friday. (Because his good friend is having a birthday party and were going there together. I have to get the present, and I have to get us there. And its so awkward when we go somewhere together, its like the elephant(Our age difference) in the room everyone pretends not to see. So I'm going to try to overcompensate by dressing sophisticated and straightening my hair. Maybe make-up.) Whoa! Tangent!!
But I do want more. I want him to want to be with me, and be interested in what I have to say. One of the reasons he told me to get a new job was so we would have something to talk about. Being that we used to have the same job for about 12 hours a day, there wasn't much we had to talk about. Now that I do, he DOES NOT want to TALK at all.
I don't know, but I'm following what my horoscope says and letting it out so we can have a nice weekend. So I hope them damn stars are right. I know it says to talk to him, but I have such an easier time talking here. So whatever.
Oh and I hope everyone's doing well, I haven't talked to any of ya'll in a minute. A special
goes out to some folks in Oklahoma
, I know you're out there! BigShane got a phone call, I just haven't been around to get in on it!
